NaBloPoMo - Day 28 - First Thanksgiving TYOFWM

I'm sitting here trying to think of the things that I'm grateful for this year,

and it's really hard.

Not that I haven't been blessed with a good job, a beautiful home,

great husband and surrounded by good friends 

but because there is a part of me

missing this year, and I just can't seem to get past that...

I'm trying to not be sad.

I'm trying to just enjoy the beautiful day not having to work,

but there's a cloud over today as I'm sure there's going

to continue to be for a while.

For the first time I'm not thinking about turkeys and stuffing

and all of the traditional foods.

I had no appetite this morning,

and the most I can think to rustle up for lunch is

leftover pizza from yesterday.

Not even in the mood to change out of pajamas

and go out to one of the local restaurants offering

a traditional Thanksgiving dinner...

I should be volunteering today

I should be out with friends

I should be doing a lot of things,

but all I want to be doing is hanging out in the kitchen

with my mom while I prep for a small Thanksgiving dinner.

Talking to her about work, and life, and what trip we should be planning...

Asking her advice about upcoming changes

upcoming career moves

upcoming anything...

I hope when you sit down at the table tonight

all differences can be laid aside

and you hold your loved ones close

or call anyone you haven't spoken to in a while

because life is short and you never know

when someone will suddenly be gone

Have no regrets....

For that I am thankful,

Momma and I lived life together as if it could end tomorrow.

Sure, we left a few things undone,

but no regrets on the rest...

My Thanksgiving wish to you all...

Have no regrets...